Come What May and Love it

My heart is pounding so hard right now and  I feel like I must write my thoughts down before I forget how I feel and forget how truly blessed I feel this day.

About a year ago I went through a lot of pain and misery. I had a miscarrage and went through a pretty tramatic event with an eptopic pregnancy.

Today I have new hope and assurance that my Heavenly Father knows me as an individual. He knows my pains and he knows my hopes and dreams.

Lets start back to Sunday at Ward Conference ; Pres Low gave a wonderful talk on growth and hope. He shared a story of a husband and wife who had been trying to have children for a number of years and had no hope on their own, with fertility or even adoption. They had almost given up hope when they were selected to be parents of 5 amazing children that had come from a home through LDS services. It was hard to keep the tears back and the joy that family had.

Then monday night Jason taught family home evening.
Count your many blessings
We did a little activity. For 3 minuites we wrote down all the blessings that we had. We then compared lists and realized ALL that our Father in Heaven has given us. We are nothing without him and we are so grateful each day for each other and the love that we have for each other.

Tuesday Morning i had a Dr's Appt with Dr Kahn. She was the Dr I saw in the hospital when I had my miscarriage. She was excellent!!!! She understood me and understood my wants and dreams. She made me feel so important and walked me through the whole process of what we needed to do from here. I left that appointment feeling calm and at ease. I now feel like I am in good hands and my best interests are at heart. I have an up beat attitude today knowing that one day I will be a MOM and that a baby will come into our family. I can't stop smiling all day just knowing that we can do this and that our hopes will come to pass one day.

I just feel so blessed and so many things to be grateful for. I was born into a wonderful family with parents that would do anything for me. They ache when their kids ache and would take away the pain if they could. I have the best siblings/friends in the world. Jasons mom has been so supportive through everything as well and we are grateful for her. I have a carling husband who loves me for me and wants me/us to be happy. Most importantly I KNOW that I am a DAUGHTER of GOD. I know he love me, I KNOW he is there for me.
Everyone goes through trials and everyone has their problems. If each of us really stopped and counted our blessings then we would truly see how the LORD loves each of us and how much we have been blessed with.

I love my Savior with all my heart and am so grateful for the knowledge that I have that families are forever. I feel him in my heart, I feel him in my life. I don't know if I can truly express how I am feeling at this moment. All I know is that I feel the love of my Saviour more than ever at this very moment. I feel his warmth and can feel his comfort. He is my my everything and I am eternally grateful for his life and his love.

For those that read this and are stuggling with trials and if  - please know that he knows you and he feels your pain. Know that there is hope in the future.

Come what may and LOVE IT!